Oh we are SO back
Mar. 27th, 2026 09:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seapicklesupremacy There's nothing hotter than when you both know you shouldn't do something, but you do it anyways... 😶
We swore off kissing for the next 5 months, but we were alone in his room and we kept just looking at each other, then groaning because we both really really wanted to, but knew we shouldn't. I kept looking at his lips then back at his eyes, and he kept giving me a sad puppy dog face. But in the end, he asked me "wanna do something stupid?" and like I was going to say no?? He gets up from the bed to switch off the lights so that "we can't see each other's expressions" (that'll somehow not encourage us to keep going?? I don't understand his logic) and then we started making out like starved men, which we were to some degree. God, I missed kissing someone like that...hands wandering in the dark...soft moans from the force of it all... Sighhhh ❤️
But it gets even better! After a couple minutes, he scrambles to his feet and calling out "I'm folding". My heart drops for a second, thinking that was it? He didn't want to kiss me anymore? I say that out loud and he switches on the light and stares me down like a hungry man and replies "no." and fucking lunges at me. He wanted to see my expressions as I moaned and squirmed under him 🤭🤭🤭
Also!! Huge milestone today!!! As we were kissing, he murmured something into my mouth and I couldn't quite catch his words, but I thought he said "I like you" (he says that quite often) so I said "I like you too!", but he smiled and said "that's not what I said." My heart picks up because it means he could've said the other thing that he's, in the past, said he's not comfortable saying because of its association with his ex. So to push it further, I jokingly said "so you hate me?" and his smile grew wider and more amused and he replied "didn't say that either". So obviously I pestered him to say it again, so he pressed into my mouth and it was muffled in the kiss AGAIN so I begged him to say it to my face. He looked up in thought, his eyes betraying his nervousness. He looked back at me and made me promise to try my hardest for the next 5 months and, of course, I promised. He paused for a moment, looking me in the eye, before cautiously saying "I love you". Ohhhh dear reader the way I MELTED at that 😭😭😭 I've been saying I love you since the beginning, I've never made me affections secret, but when he says it, my heart does double triple backflips. I love him so much :( <3
I forgot to mention we finally got to sleep in the same bed today!! We slept for, I think, an hour and a half under the blankets, just cuddled up and FUCK that was so nice. God, I really loved that. My arm fell asleep and was cramping for a hot minute, but being able to snuggle my head in the crook of his neck was so so nice.
After today, we agreed we aren't going to be physical with each other for the next 10 FUCKING MONTHS because he wants to wait until I'm 19 to officially date me because, as his friend pointed out, I'm (not so anymore) freshly 18 and he feels very strange about that as he's 21 (will be 22 by the time I'm 19), which is fair but EUGHHHHH I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER 5 MONTHS AFTER THE INITIAL 5 MONTHS 😭😭😭 BROOOO
We swore off kissing for the next 5 months, but we were alone in his room and we kept just looking at each other, then groaning because we both really really wanted to, but knew we shouldn't. I kept looking at his lips then back at his eyes, and he kept giving me a sad puppy dog face. But in the end, he asked me "wanna do something stupid?" and like I was going to say no?? He gets up from the bed to switch off the lights so that "we can't see each other's expressions" (that'll somehow not encourage us to keep going?? I don't understand his logic) and then we started making out like starved men, which we were to some degree. God, I missed kissing someone like that...hands wandering in the dark...soft moans from the force of it all... Sighhhh ❤️
But it gets even better! After a couple minutes, he scrambles to his feet and calling out "I'm folding". My heart drops for a second, thinking that was it? He didn't want to kiss me anymore? I say that out loud and he switches on the light and stares me down like a hungry man and replies "no." and fucking lunges at me. He wanted to see my expressions as I moaned and squirmed under him 🤭🤭🤭
Also!! Huge milestone today!!! As we were kissing, he murmured something into my mouth and I couldn't quite catch his words, but I thought he said "I like you" (he says that quite often) so I said "I like you too!", but he smiled and said "that's not what I said." My heart picks up because it means he could've said the other thing that he's, in the past, said he's not comfortable saying because of its association with his ex. So to push it further, I jokingly said "so you hate me?" and his smile grew wider and more amused and he replied "didn't say that either". So obviously I pestered him to say it again, so he pressed into my mouth and it was muffled in the kiss AGAIN so I begged him to say it to my face. He looked up in thought, his eyes betraying his nervousness. He looked back at me and made me promise to try my hardest for the next 5 months and, of course, I promised. He paused for a moment, looking me in the eye, before cautiously saying "I love you". Ohhhh dear reader the way I MELTED at that 😭😭😭 I've been saying I love you since the beginning, I've never made me affections secret, but when he says it, my heart does double triple backflips. I love him so much :( <3
I forgot to mention we finally got to sleep in the same bed today!! We slept for, I think, an hour and a half under the blankets, just cuddled up and FUCK that was so nice. God, I really loved that. My arm fell asleep and was cramping for a hot minute, but being able to snuggle my head in the crook of his neck was so so nice.
After today, we agreed we aren't going to be physical with each other for the next 10 FUCKING MONTHS because he wants to wait until I'm 19 to officially date me because, as his friend pointed out, I'm (not so anymore) freshly 18 and he feels very strange about that as he's 21 (will be 22 by the time I'm 19), which is fair but EUGHHHHH I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER 5 MONTHS AFTER THE INITIAL 5 MONTHS 😭😭😭 BROOOO
