Window to my soul

[seapicklesupremacy]

 Never fucking sharing my blog ever again. It's so fun to have your raw thoughts constantly be called pornographic no matter how much you protest that it's not. I trusted them with this that is so close to my heart and they fucking punched right through. They preach openness and sharing all my thoughts, even the random ones that make no sense, and when I do, it's belittled and mocked.
"Oh, it wasn't our intention to hurt you. We were laughing with you, not at you. Also you should've said it sooner more directly if it bothered you so much." Great. Thanks. That definitely doesn't make me want to punch your teeth in any less. I've learnt my lesson, some things just cannot be shared and my uncensored words are definitely one of those. I'm sorry that my dumb crush posting wasn't some flowery poetry that would make a romantic's heart swoon. That's what I fucking get for baring my heart to people that I thought I could trust. 

Comments

[scissorsevered]

ugh, I know this feeling. it makes you feel like there's something rotten inside you that you have to hide in order for people to like you.

[seapicklesupremacy]

I kept saying to them over and over again that they did not want to see my raw thoughts, that it'll change their perception of me. I just didn't expect them to distill it to "porn-brained" :/ I've been trying to combat the idea that I'm a sexual object in my mind for months now, but this has set me back to square 2