Neurosis

 I'll give a more detailed background when I have my laptop, but right now I feel like my heart is trying to pound out of my chest

You know, ever since I realised I'm neurotic as fuck, it's gotten so much worse. My mood swings are wack and so frequent, I don't even know how I'm supposed to be feeling anymore. I feel so strongly in every direction all the time, I genuinely feel like I've lost control on my own emotions.

I don't know what to do, my body feels like it's in a constant state of panic and my heart is about to give up on me. If I try to keep face, my internal feelings claw at my stomach, and if I let my emotions out, I'm plagued with guilt later. God, I'm such a mess

Neurosis 2

 What is it called when you feel unremittingly average and forgettable, yet also feel like everyone can sense that there's something inherent weird and wrong with you?